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(Sunday, March 18, 2007-)
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# Not ready yet...-
OK, I think the last post I wrote was a freaking denial of what I felt towards my friends. Moving forward is not exactly the way to solve the problem, you didn't solve it. You just let the problem getting worse. You just let the friendship that you valued 'rot'. All along I was just lying to myself that these things wouldn't matter to me anymore, actually I still care. But I've become so consumed with my own problems that I've forgotten that I still have friends that give a shit what I think, they still care.
Every time I have a problem, I blame it on someone else. I release my anger and frustration on my friend. I did it without any guilt. Now I knew, it wasn't his problem after all. It was my problem all along. Now I know, I've realised.
Unfortunately, my realisation has come to slow. My friends have left me on the sidewalk, and they've gone so far that I'm afraid I couldn't catch up anymore. All I ask is just one more chance. One more chance to make it up to you guys, I meant it. I still care, I still give a damn.
I'm sorry, guys. Especially to LaoBu, I know you've been hoping that I'll wake up from my own denial, hoping that I'll change.
Now I know, I'm willing to face it now. I am, and I meant it.
ChunHong's whining stops here;
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